Jul 152012
 

I decided to try to do something creative on those days I feel like I can do nothing but lie down. I can’t really figure out how to explain these days to you – they are very painful and hard. It feels as though your entire body is about four times heavier than usual, you can’t always walk in the direction you are trying to go, can’t always say the words you are trying to say. The more you try to make a normal day out of it, the worse you get, sometimes to the point the cain can’t even help you walk.

When one of these days comes along (too frequently lately), I decided to respect the MonSter and let go whatever small task I thought needed done (it’ll be there tomorrow – and so will I if I take care) and grab my camera. I bought a Cannon Rebel Xsi for my birthday a few years back. I LOVE this camera – it is one of the only things I’d grab if the house was on fire (of course Danny and all the critters are safe, also :)

This is the first digital camera I have ever owned. I wanted to learn everything about this new wonder – but was too busy. Well, guess what? I have fairly often higher authority imposed days that I can’t do much other than read and take pictures (most of these days, I can’t even comprehend much more than a basic crochet pattern – that I’d been working on for weeks).

So, this muggy day when I’d done too much (not much at all by normal standards) the last few days – today was my first picture day. All the pics on this site were taken with this camera. I have a very hard time holding the camera still anymore, so any clear photos make my day!

 

Jul 022012
 

After 12 years of almost daily pain, and several days to weeks each year of utter incapacity – it’s hard to explain really, like life itself has been sucked out of you – I’ve been diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. This lifeless feeling has prevailed since April this time, not letting up ever entirely. This has made the realities of running a homestead a glaring issue to be faced. There is always something to do on a homestead, always weeds to be pulled, produce to be processed, meals to be lovingly cooked, hungry creature mouths to be fed, house chores to be done, fences to fix, the list is endless. There is normally precious little time for the breaks to enjoy what all of us work for – deep peace and appreciation for our natural world. There is really no time for incapacity – no time when ‘nothing’ can be done.

With the mobility and balance issues and extreme, indescribable fatigue – I’ve been able to do very little in the gardens, very little around the house, and consider it a blessed good day if I can make our supper. The stairs in the house have become the most frightening part of my every day. Waiting on starting a treatment, it has been explained to me that the cost will be more than we can pay when my benefits are dropped – the job that paid for the environmental improvements to this home now slipping quickly away. I discovered the Swank MS Diet and have returned to veganism and an extremely low fat diet, following Dr. Swank’s plan, in combination with a lot of factors from Dr. McDougall’s plan. Still researching my herbs, I believe nature has what we need to treat anything – we just haven’t found a lot of it.

Danny has been the greatest support a girl could ask for, but has his own issues to deal with that are doubling the difficulty of keeping this homestead going. Oskar has been my constant companion, and Jet and Bella have become avid hunters and protectors of the property.

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As we struggle to find a new order at Dharma Dogs Farm, we’ll keep you posted.

Peace,

michele